Break free

Errr....

Yeah, indeed. 

This is what I need to do right now.

I need to get away for a while

To re-think what I am supposed to do.

Too much hurt, too much damaged.

And I think that I need a break for that.

To free the mind.

To break free from unwanted feeling.

~Sigh~

Just Tired

Seriously . Yes seriously I am so tired.


Tired to be a good person


Tired to be a wise person


Tired being sorry to something that I didn't do even I'm myself didn't know what's wrong


Tired to be a caring person which end up will make me so hurt.


Fucking hurt.


Is it a test for me? From Al-Mighty One?


Subhanallah.

Hurt

Hurt.

So fucking hurt, as I want to burst so much tears right now.

Am I so stupid enough to let this happen to me?

Why me? Why this must happened to me?

All I want just to be fucking happy. Am I so wrong to ask this kind of request?

So hurt. I am so hurt until I can felt the time was stopped for me. 

My heart broken. Shattered in a tiny pieces. Whereby no one can't pick it up and patch it back for me.

Damn. In this age, where I should think about marriage or children by the way.


Just why this happened to me?

I must say this is all my fucking fault, to let this happened.

Sometimes I was thinking, am my life changed to another way, if I am not meet this kind of people?

Or what would happened then?

I guess I need to move on, get over it and move my ass from this distraction relationship.


But I couldn't!


Oh please Leya, Make your mind now.


What do you want actually??!


Urghhh!

Mee Kuah Tulang Singkiaq

Tedia tedia tedia oi. Hahaha. Asyik post sedih saja haih, Kali ni nak post pasal makanan lak haih.

Last 2 weeks kot, aku pi umah adik aku dekat Merbok. Cadangnya nak tengok anak Si Ika tu, biras 

adik baru bersalin. Anak laki. Comei baq hang.

Geram haih tengok. Macam nak muka arwah Qaseh Nuraina ja aku tengok. Rindu dia huhuhu!

So lepas pada dah melawat tu, adik aku macam besa la selalu buat pasai. So dia ajak p makan lak dah.

Dia kata nak bawak mak aku makan Mee Kuah. Aku tanya dekat mana? Dia kata dekat Singkir. 

Orang utagha panggey Singkiaq. Hahaha!

Aku nak habaq jalan pun aku tak tau la haha. Tapi dia area Singkiaq, di mana penunjuk kedai tu ada 

bendera PAS huhu. Dia jugak dekat dengan masjid Singkiaq. 

Aku order Koey Teaw Kuah Ayam. For me hmmmmm so so la. Huhuhu kurang menangkap rasa dia.

In a meantime tu, mak and adik aku pesan Mee Kuah Tulang. Ha tu mmg bombastic. Sedap! 

No wonder la dia boh nama kedai dia, MEE KUAH TULANG. Rasanya tu yang dia nya signature kot

Aku yang bodo sebakui p order entah apa2. Hahaha! Tapi nak wat gena, aku mana reti makan tulang 

Sob sob sob.

Mee Kuah Tulang. Menangkap baq hang!

Koey Teow Kuah Ayam. Bole la huhu

So selamat menjamu selera la sapa2 yang duk tengok ni. Menangkap leleh gila bab nya. Lol!!

Simply

I just simply can't. You may asked me to do anything but not this one.


I'm not sure whether I am too clingy or maybe I am too stubborn person. Haihh


I am completely blurred. Need to do something on this.


I need to work on it. Get over it. As soon as possible. Hmm


Its getting make me so tired lately.


Just no more tears by the way. Just frustrated feeling.


~Leya~