I guess .....

Sometimes there is this one person you will never stop loving.


You will always love this person, in a way.


You never quite made it to be lovers, you got so close but never really got there,


And because you never lit a flame, there is nothing to blow out.


You are just two perfect matches that never got the chance to be set fire,


And so I guess without a flame, there is no smoke to clear.

Sometimes ~~

Sometime people didn't know how much they mean a lot to us.


Sometime people keep pushing us, whereby we really care about them.


Somehow, after that, once we already get over them or move on,


On that time, they started to find us and wanted to be with us



- Leya, 1:29. P.M

Keep Pushing

They tell you moving on is easy,


But moving on is actually one of the most difficult things to do.


Getting over someone is a constant state of missing someone to wishing they didn't exist,


To loving them to hating them, to wanting them to never talk to again to hoping and wishing they'd send you a text.


It slowly get easier as the distance between you two gets greater,


But I don't know if you can truly get over someone you once cared about.


They will always have a part of your heart and be a part of who you were and who you are,


But I promise one day you'll realize you deserved to be loved not considered,


You deserved to be fought for not given up on, you will see that person was a lesson not a rule.


Just keep pushing forward






Credited to : Sincerely moving on // RK

Feel

Some days,

I feel everything at once.

Other days,

I feel nothing at all



I don't know what's worse :

Drowning beneath the waves

Or drying from the thirst

Attached

If you start talking to me everyday and night, I'm obviously gonna get attached to you.


Even if I never planned to in the first place, I will.


So, before you start getting close to me,


Make sure that you won't just suddenly leave me.


Cause you know, that happens to me a lot

Best Advice

The best advice I've ever gotten,


Was said that I shouldn't be in a relationship with anyone whom I wouldn't marry,


For its a waste of time and takes you off the market.


So don't worry about relationships.


Build friendships, and one day maybe you'll suddenly meet your soul mate,


Or you'll realize you want to spend the rest of your life with your best friend.


Your young life shouldn't be spend trying to fall in love or even having to worry about a partner.


Your life right now should be filled with spending time on finding yourself and building friendships


S.P

How I Wish

"I promise that if someone comes

And has the intention to make me fall in love, 

I'll fall in love. 

Because, to be honest, I want someone to show me I can fall in love & not suffer. 

If we argue, I want you to come and make me laugh and move on like two dummies. 

Maybe someone will come and I won't be afraid to love them."

Breaking Inside

Yeah, I felt breaking inside right now.


How I am supposed to do now?


Am I weak? Am I too dumb?


~Sigh


Oh God, how I wish I can delete this kind of feeling.


Make me tasteless.


Make me so I can shut my heart


I rather to do that, if by this feeling, just only make me in hurt.


In pain.


I am breaking inside. I can feel my heart is breaking.


Into a pieces


Am I not deserve to be happy?



~ Leya

Letting Go

Letting go doesn’t mean I don’t love you anymore.


It means I love you more than ever.


It means I love you more than I love myself


So I let you live the heaven even though it means me living the hell.


— existpause  (via wnq-writers)

My Desires

My desires in a relationship have changed over time.


I no longer want someone who promises to always love me and never leave me,


I need someone who understands that life happens and sometimes things don't work out.


I don't want someone who sugar coats things and never get angry with me,


I need someone to tell me how it really is and put me in my place.


I need to be able to go five hours without talking to you and not feel lost or incomplete.


I am complete without you. But with you, I want to be so much better.


I want to be stronger and help each other grow individually.


I don't need you but I really fucking want you.


And this may not work out, but the fact that you understand all of this


And this how our relationship works, makes me think we've got a pretty good shot.

Another Memory

I think one of the saddest things is when two people really get to know each other:


Their secret, their fears, their favorite things,


What they love, what they hate, literally everything,


And then they go back to being strangers.


It's like you have to walk past them and pretend like you never knew them,


Never even talked to them before, when really you know everything about them.

Stay Calm

He may love you.


He probably does.


He probably thinks about you all the time.


But that isn't what matters.


What matters is what he's doing about it, and what he's doing about it is nothing.


And if he's doing nothing, you most certainly shouldn't do anything.


You need someone who goes out of their way to make it obvious that they want you in their life.


~~ Indeed. Why should I need to bother to do anything just to get his attention. Stay calm.

Time for Action

But at some point, you have to stop being so angry,


You have to to stop being so sad,


You have to stop killing yourself and start being gentle with yourself.


At some point, you have to just let it all and be happy,


You have to spread love instead of being afraid of it.


You have to love yourself and everything around you before it's too late.


Don't waste time being unhappy over trivial things


-- (via fawun)

Fuvked Up!

Today I felt so fucked up. Sorry for my bad word.


I am trying to move on. I am trying so hard not to think about him.


So I am decided to get know with other guy, but unfortunately. Haihhhh ~ Sigh


Too many. Too much quantity of wrong guy. Or I can say, "Fuckboy".


They will like to talk about shit. About sex. Haih such a dickhead.


So fucked up. Cause I am keep going seeing that kind of guy.


Are we nowadays losing so many good guy out there?


Damn

Deserve someone who.....

You deserve someone who gives shit.


You deserve someone who doesn't take pride in being an asshole.


You deserve someone who doesn't invalidate your feelings by calling you annoying or sensitive.


You deserve someone who doesn't play games with you.


You deserve someone who makes you secure.


You deserve someone who doesn't purposely  try to get you mad.


You deserve someone who compromises.


You deserve someone who's there for you when you're feeling down.


Remember that.


Credited to : Sandyminn

I feel Numb

I don’t want to be the person who isn’t listening when someone talks;


Instead, thinking about your eyes, your hair, your lips, your voice.


But I can’t help it.


You can’t tell yourself not to think about someone — that’s just asking to think about them even more.


It’s like riding a wave, I guess.


I have to wait for this love to crest and fall


And then I’ll finally be able to function knowing you’re so far away from me, with no end in sight.


— Karen Noble

Fall in love or not fall in

If you're going to fall in love with me,


Don't fall in love with my Sunday best.


Don't fall in love with the way I look after spending hours getting ready


Or my fakest smile or freshly done hair.


Fall in love with my body, the way it widens quite a lot around my hips


And how I will never have that perfect figure and how I honestly don't really care.


Fall in love with my impatience, my jealous moods and the times that I don't feel anything at all


And fall in love with how sometimes I act like a child whilst other times I can be the most mature.



Fall in love with my scars, my marks and all the things that makes me far less than perfect


And fall in love with every parts of me, both good and bad,


And especially will all that I consider a flaw.


Fall in love with me as a whole or don't fall in love with me at all.

Love for Friend

Yes, it hard. It hard for me to forget him.


I am difficult to leave him.


What should I do now?

True love

Be with someone who gives you butterflies,


Whether you have been together 10 days or your 10 years.


Someone who says you're beautiful when you have bags under your eyes,


And wipes your eyes when they fill with tears.


Someone who loves you even when you make things difficult for them.


Someone who loves the sound of your voice and asks you to tell your stories over and over again.


Someone who just wants to lay with you in bed and not just want your body,


Be with someone who loves you more than anybody.

Cameron Highland ~ Short Getaway

My short getaway.

29.01.2016

At Bharat Group Tea Farm

Started to move about 8 in the morning. By 10 in the morning, we (me and my friend) has arrived at Rest&Relax area (Gunung Semanggol) to take for breakfast. For breakfast, we took heavy meal which was Nasi Ayam (Chicken Rice) with extra chicken. Damn nice. I forgot to snap to picture haha. 

After we done with the breakfast, we started to move. Long journey indeed. Since we came from North, so I took Simpang Pulai to access Cameron Highland. Pretty far by the way. We had arrived at Century Pines Resort about 12.30pm. Since the check in time was at 2.30pm, we decided to go nearby shop. My friend, Nana need to buy some toiletries. And also we want to grab some food. Hahaha again food.

By the time 2.30pm, we went to hotel and check in. Took some sweet time and proceed to our sight seeing. The first place, we went Lavender Garden. The admission fee was RM8. Pretty cool there. And the flower so damn pretty. At there you can also self plucking the flowers and also strawberries. I had also grabbed the chances to drink hot chocolate strawberry whereby Nana grabbed for strawberry smoothies. Sweet and delicious. The place was so big. You can also get some sourvenier if you want.

I had bought strawberry chocolate. Yummy. 3 sticks for RM5. I think the price was fine for me thou. After awhile being there, we started to move to Rose Garden. The Rose Garden just nearby with Pasar Malam (Night Market). The Rose Garden @ Kea Farm, is a nice place and full of flowers. You can take a picture there. No admission fee by the way.

At night market, you can also there are a lot of stalls who sell vegetables, foods, fruits and so on. Don't forget to try on Fried Brocolli. My favorite all the time! They also got fried mushroom and fried spinach. Better go and taste it. At Cameron Highlands, all the shops or stalls will close early. They will close about by 6pm so you need to plan where to go.

For dinner, we just grab food at Marry Brown, before heading to hotel and rest. We didn't go anywhere at night cause all shop had closed. We just spent the time at hotel. We was stayed at Century Pines Resort. And it's kinda cool place.


Next day on 30/01/2016, we had our breakfast at hotel then checked out. We went to Bharat Group's Tea Farm and having last moment there. We was went down about 2pm and was arrived at Kuala Sepetang, Taiping. Mee Udang Mak Jah!! Yeahh. Prawn mee. How I wanted to taste it long time ago. Thanks to Nana, I can taste it now. The taste was so fantastic and delicious