Vacay Mood On!

Hell yeah. Today will be my half day off.


Will need to service the car and so on. Cameron Highlands wait for meeeeeee.


My mind need a break!


Will update soon about my vacay. Stay tuned guys! <Grin>

Heart Broken

I’ve never forgotten him.


Dare I say I miss him?


I do. I miss him. I still see him in my dreams.


They are nightmares mostly, but nightmares tinged with love.


Such is the strangeness of the human heart.


I still cannot understand how he could abandon me so unceremoniously, without any sort of goodbye,


Without looking back even once. That pain is like an axes that chops at my heart.



— Yann Martel, Life of Pi

I Miss You

I miss you.


All the time.


And perhaps that's the biggest indicator for me that I am hopeless in love with you.


I always just miss you.


And when you're with me, tangled in my embrace,


All I can think about is how you and I will be sleeping in separate beds,


And at that moment, with you right next to me,


I miss you again.

She's gone

You've noticed a change huh? She doesn't text you as often.


She never calls you anymore.


When she doesn't text you, she never says sweet things to you anymore.


She takes her time texting you back.


When you try and start an argument you can tell she really doesn't care.


She makes you feel pathetic. Guys post on her wall and she actually replies now.


You notice that she's moving on, talking to other guys and going on dates.


And now you're starting to realize how beautiful she really is. She's amazing isn't she?


Well too bad, because you lost her. There was a time when you were her world, her everything.


She really wanted you, but you pushed her aside.


You failed to realize that unlike the rest, she wasn't afraid to walk away.


She was strong enough to let go. And now suddenly you love her?


Do you even know how much pain you caused her? A lot.


So don't come around with "I miss you" stuff.


She's gone.

Be Happy

So you want to be happy?


Then stop letting the smallest things ruin your whole entire day.


If you’re bored with your daily routine, do something unexpected.


Stop complaining about how alone you are when you’re surrounded by people who actually care about you.


Forget all the drama and let go of all the grudges you’ve been holding.


Stop wasting time lingering over all that you could have, should have and would have done.


Stop spending your days thinking of how much better you could do;


Stop longing for something that has been and always will be out of your reach.


Just live the days as they come.


Wake up every morning and smile at the wonderful day that awaits you.


Take a risk for once.


Let yourself be happy,


Because you deserve it.

I'm single

I'm single because nobody takes relationships serious anymore.


I'm single because people would rather cheat than work it out.


I'm single because I'm smart enough to know people lie and will eventually disappoint you.


I'm single because I hate ending up looking stupid.


I'm single because I'd rather be with someone that has goals then someone that just parties.


I'm single because "trust" is a foreign word to me.


I'm single because I think chasing anyone is a game and I stopped playing a while back.

Why him?

"Why him?'

It was a good question. 

Why not the guy with the good grades and warm smile and perfect manners.

Why did I choose him --- him with the dangerous aura and mysterious smirks and flirtatious winks. 

Perhaps it was because he challenged me, made me question everything. 

He infuriated me at times but in the end no one could make me laugh like he did. 

He was genuinely a mystery.

By : via excerptsofstories

Move On Vs Hold On

I believe the most difficult situation,


You can be ever be faced with is deciding whether you should just move on,


Or hold on a little tighter.


Move on, and maybe you’ll lose a chance at the best thing that could have ever happened,


Or hold on, and have the possibility of one day being the biggest disaster ever created.


That's hurting me a lot.

Think First

You think you're in love and this is the one and this is it.


You may right, but before you move heaven and earth and split the sea down the middle to make it work,


Take their hand in yours, turn the lights off, turn your computers and phones and the television off,


Shut yourself off from the world.


Is this someone you can sit with in silence?


Is this someone you can spend hours doing nothing else but counting the distance between lightning and thunder?


Because life is more than a forever of picture perfect moments


It's darkness, and silence and interludes in which you hold your breath,


Forever should not feel like forever, it should feel like no time at all


It should feel like a blink of an eye; an interlude between the lightning strike and a thunder.


Credit to : Marina V

It's Rare

These days it's rare to find a man who cares about woman's thoughts, feelings and fears. 


It's rare to find a man who genuinely cares about the well-being of a woman. 


It's rare to find a man who would feel down because because his woman is feeling sad. 


It's rare to find a man who doesn't judge you by your mistakes, 


Doesn't care about your flaws and prays for you when you need it the most. 


If ever you have a man like that, thank God from the bottom of your heart. 


Because these days, a man like that is hard to find, 


They're usually known as something along the lines, of ones of a damn kind.


Credit to : S.A

She's Afraid

She 's afraid of the silence.


The dark nights when her thoughts aren't whispers, but screams.


She's afraid of the magic that leaves, the good that becomes bad,


The full stop on the last page of the last book she'll ever read.


She's afraid of conformity.


She's afraid to make too many wishes,


Because there are seven billion people wishing on the same stars as her,


And one day the sky might just run of the magic.


She's afraid of love, in case she's already had enough of it.


And she's afraid of falling, because people aren't reliable and the ground is too rough to fall onto another time.


She's afraid of people who are too kind, because everyone has their limits,


And she hates seeing beautiful things break.


Most of all, she's afraid of living a life afraid,


Of finding that at the end of it, she hasn't really lived at all


---- Afraid

Leave

It starts off with him telling you not to look at other guys when you’re with him,


Because it’s disrespectful.


He will make you feel like chivalry is a chore,


Or something he does to mold your impression about him but it’s not genuine.


Then he’ll have a problem with you interacting with other men, even if it’s a sales man.


Any eye contact made by another man will be your fault.


He will start telling you how to dress and that you should cover up,


Even though he spends his spare time liking pictures of half naked women online,


And entertaining them.


He will belittle your words, your opinions and silent your thoughts.


He will make your accomplishments seem small.


You will find yourself walking on egg shells just to avoid offending him.


Anytime you have an argument or question his behavior,


He will call you ugly and insecure, worthless and claim that no other man would want you.


And then he will apologize with empty promises and act like everything is perfect.


Don’t accept his apology.


He’ll never change.


This is not okay.


Leave.

Surprise Party for Birthday Girl

Yesterday, 5th of January 2016.


It should be my belated birthday. Hahaha. I am lucky girl as I had received 2 separate surprise.


1 from my office. And 1 from my ex-colleague from Sam's Groceria. I am touchingggggg.. !! Haha.


So happy. Even as I said before I had faced a lot of problem, but I am happy


Maybe I need to cool down my head and let it be. May happiness knocking my life's door now


Full of cakes I guess yesterday. Aummm

Black forest cake from officemate

Surprise cake from de fam

My tummy so happy yesterday. Got free treat of KFC and Ikan Bakar. 

I don't know which English word is suit to describe ikan bakar. Hahaha. Sorry guys

At Office

Surprise cake. Yeahhhh !!

Really hoping for the best of my self for this year.

May Allah ease everything for me. Ameen.

- L.E.Y.A -

Note To Self

Nobody’s going to do your life for you.


You have to do it yourself, whether you’re rich or poor, out of money or raking it in,


The beneficiary of ridiculous fortune or terrible injustice.


And you have to do it no matter what is true.


No matter what is hard. No matter what unjust, sad, sucky things befall you.


Self-pity is a dead-end road.


You make the choice to drive down it.


It’s up to you to decide to stay parked there or to turn around and drive out.


Credit to :

— Cheryl Strayed

Birthday Girl ~ 04 Jan 2016

Today, 04 January 2016. My day.


Even yesterday too many truth or sad thing happen to me. But I am okay. I know god is testing me.


I am cool. Today maybe the day where I need to be more to myself. Taking care of my heart.


Because I don't think I can give simply my heart to other and expect them to care nicely.


Today, new age of  28 years, I'm hoping that this year will be the year for me. Hope so


I don't want to expect much but I just want to be happy. May happiness knocking to me now


Really hope for the best for my life. Cheerrrrrssss..!!